It’s been a while since I’ve blogged. I have been feeling uninspired and I have kept “busy” with life. Being busy is a problem for me. When I keep my world full of things to do, places to go, people to talk to, I tend to make my time with God my last priority. I am still doing my daily devotions…sometimes 2-3 days at a time to catch up…but this last week or so I haven’t been being truly silent before God, letting him speak to me. I’ve been just checking it off my list…a big No No for me!
So today I said a quick prayer, just asked God to speak to me today. There have been a few particularly difficult situations that Cory and I have had to deal with lately, so I really needed God to hear me today. I have found myself questioning things lately wondering why me, why us, why this, why now and how do we go forward from here?
I don’t know why I fill my life up so much thinking if I just stay busy that will help, that being busy will just help me to stop trying to figure out the answers to my questions or maybe even provide a solution, it never does. It’s only when I sit down and just come quietly before him that he actually throws me out a life preserver. Today was one of those days.
My devotion for today led me to Habakkuk. I have never actually read this book in the Bible before so I did a little research on who Habakkuk was and I found that he was a prophet most know for questioning God. He asked God why, God responded and Habakkuk then praised him. This is what I love about God, he lets us question him, ask why, how, when, etc. His answers are always to the point. I can just picture in my head me and God having a conversation. He in his thrown, me at his feet, with tearful cries asking WHY, WHY, WHY. And God just looking at me holding my chin up and saying “You silly girl, don’t worry about why or how or when. Give your troubles to me, let them go, move on to the next thing I have for you today, and remember I AM GOD, I will take care of it.”
I love this passage from Habakkuk 3:17-19 MSG “Though the cherry trees don’t blossom and the strawberries don’t ripen, Though the apples are worm-eaten and the wheat fields stunted, Though the sheep pens are sheepless and the cattle barns empty, I’m singing JOYFUL praise to God. I’m turning cartwheels of JOY to my Savior God. Counting on God’s Rule to prevail, I take heart and gain strength. I run like a deer. I feel like I’m king of the mountain!”
You see God met me where I am today. He knew exactly what I needed today, as he always does. He led me through some scripture and to some blog sites that met a need that I had today. So today I’m not going to ask any more questions. I am just going to praise Him because even though things don’t always look good and I don’t always know what to do. HE is my strength! I can count on God’s rule to prevail! He will help me to walk through the fields of struggle, holding my hand all the way! I might even turn a cartwheel of JOY to my savior!