Tomorrow is the first day of school. Usually each year I am super focused on getting everyone and everything ready to go, schedules, backpacks, etc, etc. But this year seems different to me and I think it’s because something has changed in my heart this summer. While I still am doing all of those things…my pace is a little more relaxed, less worked up.
While I am just as eager as any other mother to get my kids out of the house, off the couch and back into routine. I just have this underlying deep feeling that this year is going to be different. You see in years past I was always a rush, rush get her here, get him there, hurry up, freaking out, losing my temper, losing my mind kinda mom. But not this year I can’t do it. I can’t make this school year about me and about how busy I am having to run here and there or wherever. Because this is part of who God created me to be. I am not just Jen. I am Carly, Carson, Ciara & Carissa’s Momma. And with that title my job description gets to include things like bus (minivan) driver, soccer mom, volleyball mom, football mom, music enthusiast, fashion/hair/makeup artist, planner, organizer, tutor, lunch lady, atm machine, you get it. I get to be all these things FOR them, because they are my kids, given to me by a God who trusts that their Daddy and I are capable of being their parents. What an honor that I have taken for granted so many times.
School begins this week and from this moment forward I am ALL IN for these 4 amazing creations. This year is about them. Whatever else is going on in my life will take the back burner, they will be first (well actually third….you know God first, hubs second, then my babies)….but nevertheless my heart is theirs! Because I have learned this summer that life and happiness are not in the future or the what ifs or the if only’s….life and happiness are RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW. Team Troyna…this momma is your #1 fan!
First item on my better mom agenda: Get up earlier and make their mornings easier….so pray for me…this might be the hardest change!