JOY in Self Discovery

Is it possible that I am nearly 34 years old and I am just now starting to realize what I want to be when I grow up. I know for certain what I am not! I know that math and I don’t get along, so anything numbers related isn’t for me….of course I married an accountant, he fills in the gaps! I also know that things like science and geography are also struggles for me. While I do like to travel, I am a bit directionally challenged. Cooking is another area that I lack skills, I think it’s because it requires patience, something I have in limited amounts. Medical related things are difficult for me, I have a bit of a weak stomach when it comes to blood and bodily functions. As a mother I am required to “handle” these things, but its takes a lot of holding back for me. I would like to be good at something like psychology or counseling, but honestly, brutally honestly, I am a better talker than I am a listener, I am usually the one on the couch spewing my problems, my listening skills need some work.

I know God did not put me on this earth for no purpose at all. Because of that I have spent the past 5 months on a mission to self discovery. Here is what I know I am good at: organization (to a point, I’ll be honest when the closet door is closed, it is closed for a reason people, what’s on the other side might scare you). But I do enjoy organizing events, parties, things of that nature. I love to make lists and I love checking things off my list. I sometimes make a list to make a list, oh bother! I really enjoy reading, something I didn’t even know until about 3 years ago, mostly because I am a busy person so it wasn’t until I actually took the time to sit down and read a book did I know that I would become addicted. I love journaling and blogging, again things that I didn’t realize I would find so much enjoyment from until I actually did them, and now here I am blogging away. I enjoy fashion, I am constantly adding to and removing from my wardrobe. I can’t always afford to pay top dollar so I have really taken a liking to thrift and second hand stores and garage sales, oh how I love garage sales! I also love DIY projects and decorating and redecorating my home, which is also why I am can’t get enough of antiquing. I love the meaning behind something old and the story it has to tell. I love knowing that things you find in places like a flea market or antique store have lived a life already, but aren’t ready to give up, rather become joy to someone else. I feel like when I buy something that is used or old, it’s like I am bringing a part of someone’s unique story into my own home and sharing it with them.

So now that I know what I am and am not, I am starting to put the pieces together. I know that God has me in the job I am in right now because it suits many of my positive qualities, it’s flexible for our family, local and interesting, so there I will stay. But it only fills about 4 hours of my day 5 days a week, there is much more to me than those 4 hours. When I am not there and when my responsibilities as a mom and wife allow me some free time. I am doing all of those things that I love and I’m thinking, what if I used them in a way that might add to my life or the life of others?

Here is my plan. I am going to share this blog and start adding to it, adding projects, adventures, experiences, ah ha moments, etc. I am going to share my life with you and the things that make me who I am. I hope you will follow, I hope you will share and I hope it will be worthwhile it for me and for you.

First up something that brings me joy everyday (other then my amazing family). Each day when I walk out the door I get to see this, a little project that Cory and I did together this summer. It has special meaning to me because it was one of the first projects we’ve ever done where we put both of our creative and task oriented minds together, without arguing, and we accomplished something beautiful. We don’t use it very often, thanks to the warm sunshine that happens to turn this little spot into a sauna right around supper time each day, but we will, oh we will!



About believingjoy

Who am I? That's a good question! I am Jen...a blemished woman who enjoys a tidbit of tidyness mixed with dash of craziness to create a life that is simply mine! I adore my 4 children and their daddy. I love little bits of wild like tattoos and things that make us unique. I like to mix vintage with new and strive for progress over perfection! I believe that not a single person on this planet is perfect and that's okay, it's what makes us who we are. My desire is to find joy is all circumstances with a smile and a choice to believe.
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