Cory told me the other day that he appreciated me because I keep us all organized and always know who has to go where, when, etc. I’ve been thinking about that. There is a certain peace that comes with having a plan and knowing the satisfaction one feels when that plan comes together. But what happens when that plan doesn’t go as planned? In the past this would be a huge problem for me, complete with meltdowns and grumpiness. But something is changing within me and I am realizing that sometimes life doesn’t go as planned for a reason and patience with the plan is where my peace really comes from. You see it’s not about making sure every detail goes exactly how I envisioned it. It’s more like taking a minute in the midst of the imperfection and saying “This isn’t how I saw this going, but that’s ok, let’s carry on and see where this ends up.”
I have to remind myself to continually turn from the path of planning to the path of peace!
This doesn’t mean I stop keeping a calendar or I never plan a party again. It just means to seriously take each moment as it comes. Because for me sometimes being so focused on the PLAN, I miss out on the smile, the sunset, the big play, the joke, the opportunity, THE MOMENT!
In her book One Thousand Gifts, Ann Voskamp writes “I have lived the runner, panting ahead in worry, pounding back in regrets, terrified to live in the present, because here-time asks me to do the hardest of all: just open wide and receive.”
What am I missing that is waiting there for me in those moments of peace that I didn’t plan for? I want to know them, feel them, breathe them, embrace them.
And I know that I can be organized and still find JOY in the moments, if I just slow down and take each day as it comes. Be here, right now!