Heart Check

I just hit submit on a 10 page, 2500 word essay. I should be taking a hot bath with a bottle glass of wine right now. Or maybe I should catch up on laundry, gardening, cleaning, reading, or whatever else is awaiting my attention. But nah! I shall blog. I have missed my blog and I need some therapeutic writing. So lucky you!

So amidst this crazy month of June, which promised to be relaxing since its summer and all, but has yet to follow through on said promise. As I have been dragging kids to VBS (they will thank me for it later), stocking up on groceries, recovering from a long weekend of soccer, enjoying canceled t-ball games (yup I just said that…don’t even act like you don’t feel the same way), avoiding housework, and whatever else. I have had this little voice ever so softly whispering in my ear. I know its the voice of God because I keep trying to make up excuses for what he has to say. I’ve also been hearing advice of a trusted friend and mentor. What I need to do is LISTEN!

This is what I am hearing: HEART=ATTITUDE.

As I have been going through the motions for the last 6-8 weeks, I just felt kind of crummy. My attitude has been sub par. Its been a very busy few weeks for our house so it is likely wearing on my spirit. The truth is life is always going to try and wear us down. The question is what am I going to do about it. The answer…check my heart.

Whenever our schedule fills up and we are running in different directions Cory and I tend to get snappy with each other. Usually the solution to many of our little mid craziness spats, is simply time together. We need to disconnect from the world and connect with one another. It almost always does the trick and sets us back in forward motion. I respond the same way to God. When I start to feel my attitude sliding downward. When I notice myself constantly complaining about and arguing with just about everyone. When my blood boils more than it gently flows. I know I need my spirit renewed. I need to check my heart, clear my schedule, shut out the world and spend time with God.

In ideal circumstances I would be 100% in touch with God all the time. I would go to him BEFORE I felt the crummies coming on. But the truth is, I am human and a slight perfectionist. I foolishly want to “handle” everything on my own. That’s just not possible and that’s okay. If you are anything like me and feel this same struggle, please be encouraged and empowered.  Take a moment, step out of the world, and step into the arms of God. Its a beautiful place to be!

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About believingjoy

Who am I? That's a good question! I am Jen...a blemished woman who enjoys a tidbit of tidyness mixed with dash of craziness to create a life that is simply mine! I adore my 4 children and their daddy. I love little bits of wild like tattoos and things that make us unique. I like to mix vintage with new and strive for progress over perfection! I believe that not a single person on this planet is perfect and that's okay, it's what makes us who we are. My desire is to find joy is all circumstances with a smile and a choice to believe.
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