You’ve all heard the saying “lost in translation.” The basic meaning of this phrase is when the original meaning or certain details are lost or not present through the process of a translation.
I am currently experiencing a feeling similar to this, except I am calling it a state of being “lost in TRANSITION.” Through the last couple of posts I have shared that a lot of things have changed or been completed recently in my life. I am finding myself a bit lost lately. Through the process of reaching goals physically, completing my degree, school and sports related activities on summer break I have reached a state of lackluster. There are projects, activities, trips, “busyness” on the horizon. The problem is they are not quite within mobilization reach and I am just not sure what to do with myself in the interim.
Most people would find this time refreshing, relaxing, rejuvenating. I know it will result in those things for me as well. Unfortunately, I am having a hard time grasping this season and fully letting it absorb. I can’t help but feel slightly paralyzed. I have been depressed before so I know that’s not what I am feeling. I am still functioning as normal but I just feel like something is missing. Something I should be doing? So here I sit lost in transition. Have you ever been there? It’s not necessarily a bad place to be, just strange I guess.
Here is what I do know. The Lord has me in this moment for a specific reason. Perhaps he knows I need this. I am a 100% type A person, keeping busy, organized, getting thing done is what I do, it’s who I am. I can’t help but feel like God is talking to me through this time. I keep hearing Him say things like “sit here a moment, while I am preparing you, preparing the future.” Sitting is hard and for what I am waiting I am not exactly sure. But I know that I am not alone even though I feel lost. I know He has plans greater than anything I could ever imagine for me, for our family, for our church, and community. He is at work that I know for sure.
I came across the verse Psalm 4:7 today “You have filled my heart with greater joy…” It struck me as though God was saying go there, read this passage I have a message for you. I did and this is what it says:
“Answer me when I call to you, O my righteous God. Give me relief from my distress; be merciful to me and hear my prayer. How long, O men, will you turn my glory into shame? How long will you love delusions and seek false gods? Know that the Lord has set apart the godly for himself; the Lord will hear when I call to him. In your anger do not sin; when you are on your beds, search your hearts and be silent. Offer right sacrifices and trust in the Lord. Many are asking “Who can show us any good?” Let the light of your face shine upon us, O Lord. You have filled my heart with greater joy than when their grain and new wine abound. I will lie down and sleep in peace; for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.” Psalm 4:1-8
Here is what I think he is telling me and maybe you through this passage? It’s okay to be lost in transition. Times like these are for searching our hearts, being silent, listening. We have sin to work on. I have forgiveness to seek for falling prey to the delusions of a sinful world. I feel like he is using this time as a way to prune me, making me trust Him, letting his light shine upon and within me until I am brimming over with joy.
I have decided that rather than feeling “lost” in transition I am going to allow my self to REST in transition. Soak up His words, allow myself to relax and enjoy a slower pace for a few weeks. Seek forgiveness where needed and fill myself with His joy and peace. I invite you to join me in this place, the Lord’s dwelling place!
P.S. To all of my family and friends…if I see quiet, even distant…know this…I am just RELAXED…and I am okay with that…you should be too!
Embrace the REST!