It is Time!

Do you ever get to a point where you just know something as to give? I will be completely honest and tell you that the last 2 months have been a mess for me.

With the busyness of holidays, a steady stream of sick kids, the influence of added sugary snacks and beverages, not enough downtime, and cold, cold, cold temperatures, combined with a lack of sufficient sunshine, I have been STRUGGLING!

I have mentioned before that I struggle with S.A.D. (Seasonal Affective Disorder) and this year might be an off the charts year of winter blues.

After going through seasons like this before I have learned to pay attention to my body. I know when my limits have been reached and when it’s time to get a grip. I am there right now. Unfortunately (mostly for my family) I have probably let it go too far…again…and I owe them many apologies for my mood swings, lack of luster for life, excessive napping, and so forth.

On the flip side of all this “Debby downing”, communication works! I acknowledged my needs and communicated my concerns and with the support of my husband and my family, today we start fresh. Conveniently at the beginning of a new year.

With all of this happening I have had a difficult time enjoying the things that I normally love, such as blogging, journaling, reading, exercising. I have still been trying, the efforts have just been weak. So as usual, I am apologizing to my follower(s) for my lack of blog updates. It’s hard to be inspiring when you don’t feel all that inspired.

But here we are on the cusp of a new year and a fresh opportunity to get a grip on life. That’s exactly what I am doing today! In addition to attending to my S.A.D. I am also recharging my health journey.

I miraculously slid through these last few weeks in a negative state and only gained a minimal amount of weight that I had spend the last 18 months working my butt off to lose. One of my biggest fears is to go back to where I once was. I am conquering that fear by only moving forward! I am thankful that my self sabotaging these last few weeks is still manageable. But that’s the thing…I now actually need to manage it, and so I will.

I have coerced my amazing and supportive husband into spending the next 30 days cleaning out and going Whole30 with me. What’s Whole30 you ask? Check out this link: WHOLE30 for more information. Fortunately I pretty much already eat Whole30 for the most part so with just a couple small changes I think I will notice big differences over the next 30 days.

Next, I am kicking off the 30 days with a 10-day Advocare cleanse. Again, for more information on the cleanse check out this link: ADVOVARE 10-DAY CLEANSE. I’ve done these before and they are a great way to get started feeling healthy and strong again.

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I plan to continue my food logging at MyFitnessPal and using my FitBit to track my exercise. I spent the last year running A LOT. I have decided that for the next 30 days I am actually going to run less. I’ve been experiencing some burnout and lack of love for running (I blame this on not enough rest after my half marathon, combined with an extreme distaste for the treadmill in the brutally cold months). So workout videos, walking, HIIT cardio, etc. I’m in…and I am sure I will sneak in a few runs too! Six days a week for 30-60 minutes is my goal…it’s actually not a goal, I already do this I just need to stay consistent.

And last but certainly not least…I am going to read more scripture! Pouring positive and motivating, uplifting, encouraging words into my mind is huge for me, it always is. So today I am getting after it, filling my mind with the things from above.

In addition to all this, I am hoping to use this space as a place of accountability. I’d like to track my Whole30 days of progress here. So watch for future posts of daily menus, likes, dislikes, workouts, progress, and more!

As always, thank you for following me, even when it seems like forever since I’ve last blogged. I hope you can appreciate my honesty and hopefully it’s comforting to someone out there and maybe even inspiring too.

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Priceless

This fall I jumped back in to a Ladies Bible Study group. It’s been a few years since I’ve committed to a group study. I’ve missed it. Although my time away from group study was needed for my personal growth and relationship with God, it really is good to be back. I am also excited about the opportunity to focus in on a particular topic. The study we are working through is Comparison Trap by Andy and Sandra Stanley.

This happens to be the absolute perfect topic for me start back with. It has been convicting from the first words! As much as I love a good, convicting study…I can’t lie it is messing me up (in a good way)! My mind and heart have been racing trying to understanding what it is God is telling me already after just week one.

The first week was on awareness. Let me tell you I am now entirely aware that I have a comparison problem…sad yes, true, yes. We all have areas of struggle and for me body image, kids accomplishments, and home (materialism) are right up at the top along with others close behind.

Today was began week two and our topic was value. The words value and worth hit me deep in my soul every single time. I have struggled through feelings of self worth(lessness) for many years. Today especially I woke up and already felt like a failure because I didn’t have as many Fitbit steps as I thought I should. As motivating as my Fitbit is…I think its becoming a self worth problem. But this is not even the issue I wanted to write about today. This is how widespread this comparison issue is in our lives.

Last week in one of our daily lessons a practical application was to begin each day thanking God for something, anything. I personally felt compelled to thank him for at least one positive characteristic in each of my children. Today Andy expressed the importance of realizing that no one person or no one thing will ever determine our value. God compares us to NO-ONE. We have to realize the truth that our worth can only come from God.

This led me to realize that as a mother I want my children to know not only how much they are loved by me, but more importantly by God. I have seen first hand how a simple word of encouragement and feeling of worth can completely change a perspective and behavior.

Two years ago our son endured a long and difficult school year. He constantly felt worthless, never good enough. It was affecting his  school work, his attitude at home, his behavior, his motivation, his eating habits, everything…he was a hot mess. After months of prayer and counseling (and coincidentally an end to the school year), we switched gears. It was like a light-bulb went off and we realized exactly what he needed. Our son is smart, kind, helpful, capable, handsome, funny, loving, caring and VALUED! And he needed to hear it and feel it. So we began telling him and reminding him that we not only see these things in him, but God does as well. He created him purposefully and completely unique. We became proactive and started building him up, reminding him of the truth and squashing the lies he thought about  himself.We saw a complete transformation in our son. He now realizes those things, but also acts on them and is making choices to serve others because he knows God calls him to do that. He just simply needed to replace all those lies he thought about himself with the truth. His value, my value, your value comes from none other than God alone!

So…at the end of the study today Sandra Stanley challenged us to find a scripture to memorize and a song with encouraging lyrics to remind us of our value in Jesus. If you listen to Christian radio you might have heard the the son Priceless by For King and Country. If not, listen here…it pretty much just sums it all up. #truth

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The Troyna Family’s Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day (or two).

Ahhh vacation. A time of relaxation, disconnecting, refreshing, sight seeing. We all long for it. Our family had been planning for and looking forward to our recent week-long hiatus for nearly a year.

Neither my husband or I were raised in families that took an annual family vacation. We had our share of trips growing up, but nothing of the “annual” sort. As we raise our own family we have followed that trend, but have tried to add a few more experiences for our kids. One of which was a week-long trip to northern Minnesota with my parents, my sister and her family, and one other close friend family. This was a new experience for all of us.

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Although there were without a doubt some perfect moments throughout the week. I’m just going to be straight up honest here and say the overall experience was not perfect…and that’s okay..keep reading…

On the way to our destination we had some vehicle troubles that resulted in a tow truck and  extra (unbudgeted) expenses. Throughout the week we had lots of great days filled with fishing, swimming, laughing, eating, laziness, and sunshine to make up for the craziness of our combined families living arrangements. Not everyday went as smooth as honey, but most days were pure bliss.

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That is until the week ended and it was time to go home. By Friday night I was grumpy. Not because I was sick of the week or the people. It was a sad grumpiness. I didn’t want the week to end, can you relate?

Saturday morning we loaded up and set off for home. After our 6 hour turned 10 hour trip to vacation, the ride home was bound to go better. In no time we’d be back to our humble abodes, doing laundry and unpacking….or so we thought.

A couple of hours into the drive the trailer tire on our family friends’ vehicle blew. Half of our caravan decided to move ahead about an hour drive and wait on the other side of the Cities. As we forged ahead it wasn’t long and our own trailer blew a tire! This would be vehicle mishap #2 of the trip for our family. After several hours of waiting and working we finally got ourselves back on the road. Unfortunately, our bad luck followed us. A cell phone was dropped and damaged (after surviving a dip in the hot tub earlier in the week), our luggage got rained on, we got a call on the way home that our credit card had fraudulent activity, and like fuel to a smoldering fire….the dog peed on my husband’s leg at one of our stops. By this time all we could do was laugh! So there you have it…we are never going on vacation again….until next year of course!

But here’s the thing…as we look back, and even in the midst of it all, we could see God’s hands at work. Every time a vehicle broke down we were within minutes from a repair shop. We had the money in our bank accounts to get the work done. We had a large group of people who were all very patient, supportive, and helpful. Not one of the 11 children in tow had a melt down on either of the two 10 hour car trips. It’s simple really…we think we have it all planned and figured out and God always shows up in unexpected ways and reminds us that he is in control.

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Even though we had a couple of terrible, horrible, no good, very bad days. We now have some terrific, happy, forever funny, absolutely amazing memories to reflect on for many years to come!

I can’t help but just thank Jesus over and over for his love and provision! #weareblessed

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